I was number 4 of 5 Kind Of
I never knew John growing up, he was a teenager by the time I was born. Apparently my mother didn't like him, and wanted him to move out, so he did. He moved out and in with his mother. Apparently it wasn't a great arrangement because he does not like my mother.
I remember watching shows like full house, family matters, and step by step. I would think, it would be awesome to be in a family that enjoyed one another like they did. I've thought maybe someday I'd have enough power to fix everyone. I've been kind of successful, I'll get to that some another time.
My other brother John, for all intents and purposes was a stranger to me. The oldest brother I really know is named Ben. From many accounts he has a high IQ, he used to read big books when I was young. I remember asking him his favorite book and he said it was "The Wishsong of Shannara" by Terry Brooks. I read the "Sword of Shannara" and "The Elfstone of Shannara" I enjoyed them, but never made it to The Wishsong. I didn't interact with him much, he was 6 years older then me and he went to live with my father after my parents got divorced. So our interaction was limited. He got involved with bad kids and drugs as far as I know. He didn't do well at school and kind of just did odd jobs here and there.
I think my father and him went to counseling to help him be a more productive member of society. It didn't work out for him. I think the drugs harmed his health more then his health already was. My brother has seizures. In my high school and college days I would occasionally get phone calls from random strangers asking me what to do. I would tell them that I couldn't help, because generally I couldn't, and tell them to call for an ambulance or call my father.
My brother Ben live in the same area as me, but we never hang out. He's been in fights, he's stolen, he has a history with drugs, and he never seems be able to keep his head above water. I'm don't like him around my family except in very control ways. My family has a history of taking from me and never being satisfied with what they get, or able to take care of themselves.
I think he' the most gone of my immediate siblings. His seizures have apparently gotten worse with time. He's has medication and is on disability. So since he's gotten on disability I at least know he won't starve to death. I hope he gets better, but I think the probability is pretty low.
I'll write more later. To be continued.